Survivor

Hello, my name is Survivor. When I was 14 years old I was sexually assaulted by a 23 year old man. I went on into my teenage years not knowing how to work through it, but sought out male attention through my trauma and also my childhood of not feeling close or loved by a main male figure in my life. My very first relationship was with a narcissist who was emotionally abusive. After 2 years I broke up with this person, but my hurt and trauma piled up. In my 20’s I was with another narcissist in a long term relationship and had a child with. My trauma was triggered when I also left this person, but he tried to maintain a sexual relationship even though he was engaged. I was led to believe I was loved and he was confused and wanted to fix things and change, but this person just wanted to use me. I spiraled a bit because this obviously triggered my original trauma that men just take what they want for their sexual needs and also use abuse to get it. I am still on my healing journey and I have come a long way and dealing with the trauma I buried deep since being a teenager. I wish healing for every woman out there who feels like they don’t want any man to touch them or be close to them right now, who need healing. I see and love all of you.