Hi, my sexual story began when I was only 14. I was dating a guy and he was older then me by about a year. He was 15 or 16 at the time. I went over to his house and was sort of peer pressured into having sex with him. It was not enjoyable and I later found out that he had been sleeping with at least 2 other girls in his age bracket. That is when we broke up. I felt deviated. My friends who were also 14-15 at the time, really wanted to help me get over this older guy. I hadn't told them about him peer pressuring me into it. So they set me up with another bloke, he was younger then us so I thought he could do no harm. We went to hangout at the local showgrounds where I believed we would throw a frisbee and just be kids. This is when he began to kiss and grope me. I didn't really push him away because I didn't know what to do. Then he began to slide his hand up my skirt, and under my bike pants. I knew I wasn't comfortable so I tried pulling away but that's when he pulled them down. He asked me, "Can I put it in?" I was shocked, this was the first time I had hungout with this man one in one. My response was, "I'm not too sure about that yet." But he ignored me. Put it in anyways. I just froze and did exactly what he said. I kept repeating in my head, "this means nothing. This means nothing, till be over soon." At the age of 14 I was raped by a 13 year old in a bush at my local showgrounds. I blamed myself for a long time. Thinking it was my fault because I didn't push him off or indicate that I didn't want it. But now looking back, that no yes means no. My parents still to this day do not know, and I don't know how to tell them.