First off my ex husband and I were only married for a couple of years when he started having cyber sex with other women. He swore he wasn't but I caught him. He still denied it. When we got together he had 3 kids and I had 3 kids and then we had one together. Ok now he was also always talking to women and I caught him doing so on the internet. He was calling them out of state on the cell phone and talking about moving there with them. I found that on emails. He always said he had to have someone to talk to because I was working a lot of hours. Well with 7 kids someone had to work as many hours as they could and he wouldn't. Then I hurt my back at work and he seemed to resent me for it but at least I had money still coming in. We started camping and got the kids out of town and we bought a small older camper because I could no longer sleep on the ground. Well then he started riding quads and got mixed up with this one woman and was always taking off with her. My oldest daughter and her husband were sleeping with the same woman at the same time he was and were sticking up for him. This went on for a year and a half until I had proof he was having an affair with all of them and I kicked him out. He weaseled back into my life and promised me he would never do it again. I was so stupid because the next thing he started doing was raping me and sodomizing me and doing this at gun point and often times with a knife to my throat. He said the reason he was doing it was because I made him give her up. He would sodomize me and then force me to put it in my mouth until he got hard and then rape me. After he was done he would give me an enema and douche me so i didnt have any proof. This went on for 12 years. I couldn't get away from him. A year ago he had just done all of this and then I had a heart attack and he waited 30 minutes to call an ambulance saying he hoped I died. I had the widow maker and they said I should have died but I am very alive. He never came to see me in the hospital and when he came to pick me up he waited in the van while me and the nurse put my things in the van. While I was in the hospital a man that I have loved since high school was a RN at the hospital and messaged me and wanted my phone number and we talked for 3 hours on the phone. He said he has loved me since high school too. We talked after I went home and I told him a little bit and he said that was rape and that I needed to get out of there. Six weeks after the heart attack my ex finally went back to work and I moved out that very day. I moved into my friends house and have been there ever since. My divorce was final in Dec. But not before my ex threatened to kill me if I didnt sign my house that I paid cash for from my settlement money over to him. He waited outside the attorneys door and had told me not to say or do anything or he would kill me. Now 3 months ago I started talking to my friend about all of the things my ex did to me and we went to the police but the officer says im lieing and he plans to put me away for false statement. I went for a pfa because now my ex and his girlfriend have both threatened to kill me. The police wont do anything. I am having trouble moving on as everyone tells me to do and the ex has turned my children against me.