Two years ago a co worker took it too far and assaulted me. He grabbed my throat and after saying no several times he continued defending his behavior by saying he would be quick. I quickly told my boss (who is like a second mom) and she responded with a painful joke about how funny that was. Months later after continuously not being believed, not being listened to and so many comments I found out one of my “best friends” who was aware of the situation was secretly dating him. When this came out she defended her actions by saying he would never treat her that way. After the hurt of that I began dating a man. It moved quickly and was an amazing 6 months. After that he became emotionally, sexually and physically abusive. Purposely triggering me and saying if I loved him I wouldn’t be triggered. After realizing I could not handle this relationship any more I firmly stood up for my boundaries for the first ever and as a result the relationship ended. It’s been 2 days since the breakup and he is living with a new girl he just met. I’m struggling with the fact that every time I left feeling like I was just sex or nothing at all has now been justified on top of processing the abuse.